My Little Darlin, PT day 36, by David

My step mother Linda stayed with Jan last night and my stepson Derek stayed with her the night before to allow me to catch up on some needed sleep.  Each morning I came in after being away over night I would walk in with the hopeful anticipation that she had had an amazing over night acceleration in her neurological condition and would be sitting up on bed with a big smile on her face carrying on a normal conversation.  It did not happen.  Last night she slept very little, maybe 15 minutes at a time although she had several 30 to 60 min naps during the day yesterday.  She has periods of clarity particularly once yesterday when Parisa asked her how well I could dance and she answers "pitiful".  She was dead on with that response.  I must  admit it is very difficult psychologically for me most of the time to see her like this.  I do a pretty good job of keeping my emotions in check.  I do not show her any negative emotion.  She continues to ramble but one thing for certain she wants some milk.  That has been her primary focus the past two days.  Kevin has also been a focus.  He, Parisa and David spent some time with us yesterday.  She did tell Kevin he was her hero.  She will occasionally focus and respond appropriately naming people and reading things such as tag lines on t shirts.   Again the fear is that how she is now will not improve but I have been reassured by a friend of mine who has quite a bit of professional experience with similar patients that where she is now is not unexpected and may be ahead of the curve.  From day one I have had the fear she would not improve but she has.  I am usually a very patient person but it is hard when it comes to My Little Solemate.

We are on our way to the Shepherd center this morning.  I have high expectations and have heard nothing but good things about them.  I just want my Jan back and I want her back now.

Please do not forget why Jan is in here.  I perceive there is momentum that is producing changes for the good.  I would not want this to have been done to her in vain.

I will continue my posts on Jan's hopefully rapid rehabilitation at the Shepherd Center starting tomorrow.  It will be an education for me as well.

Thank you for reading, thank you for not letting this be in vain.

SHARE THE ROAD, IT'S A LIFE
PUT THE !%@$# CELL PHONE DOWN BEFORE YOU KILL SOMEBODY
GET OFF THE COUCH, DO IT FOR YOURSELF
GET INVOLVED WITH BIKE WALK MISSISSIPPI,  MAKE A DIFFERENCE

I Love My Little Darlin , I miss doing stuff (or nothing) with her
David